7/30/2006
wow really. i'm so gonna flunk my science common test. my sci grades r dropping faster den u can say "blah ga ya reta boo cha gatu nomei boouu dag munte cha." don't noe wat tt means. bullshit, this is.

oh gawd. everytime i hear this particular song, it makes me feel like crying. unfortunately, i don't noe the title..or the dude who sang it. mm hmm it's a guy. maybe it's the lyrics n the way it's sung. or maybe its the tune.. well.. this has been rather crappy.

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you love me
now you don't

now you want me
now you don't

now you need me
now you don't

you say u'd take away my pain
now you're giving me yours

now i'm torn inside and out
till now you've been whole


this has been some crap written out of boredom and *ahem* something else

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waiting for ur call,
i'm sick,
call i'm angry,
call i'm desperate for your voice,
listening to the song,
we used to sing,
in the car,
do you remember,
butterfly,
early summer,
explaining on repeat,
just like when we would meet,
like when we would meet,

and i was born,
to tell you i love you,
and i am torn,
to do wat i have to,
to make you mine,
to stay with me tonight..

stripped and polished
i am new
i am fresh
i am feeling so ambitious
you and me,
flesh to flesh,
because every breath that you will take,
while you are sitting next to me,
while bring life into my deepest hopes,
what's your fantasy?

i was born,
to tell you i love you,
and i am torn to do what i have to,
to make you mine,
stay with me tonight,
and i'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home,
and i'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home,
and i'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home,
and i'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home,
i know everything you wanted isn't anything you have,


i was born,
to tell you i love you,
and I am torn to do what i have to,
to make you mine,
stay with me tonight,

i was born to tell you i love you,
and i am torn to do what i have to,
to make you mine,
stay with me tonight,
i know everything you wanted isn't anything you have.

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that's part of the lyrics of the song. well yeah, i actually heard it over n over again. like i said, don't know the dude who sang it or the title.. in case u guys r wondering.. i went to someone's blog to listen to it. and cuz my silly com got freaking problem, i haf to keep closing tt window n openin a new one. so.. guess how long i took to type that erm.. few paragraghs. bets, anyone?

melancholy. it's flooding my system. and yeah, after listening to this particular song, it makes me.. even more so.. melancholic. i'm thinking of him.. and wondering and thinking of all the possiblities. if asked to choose between him and my friends. i'm surprised to say.. my friends. i thought i would always put love infront of everything in my life. guess i'm wrong. no matter how much i love someone, i'll choose my friends over him. yeah, dude, it's you. the one i'm refering to.

oh mann. i can't stop hummin that song!! it's like taken over my life. i'm ruled by it!! cuz ya noe y? LOVIN IT!! this post has been rather emo for me. all listening to tt song over and over again. so yeah, i should go. and maybe start crying after listening to that song once more.. and yet once again, i'm feeling unhappy. so yeah...

7/28/2006

you make me feel out of my element
like i'm walkin' on broken glass
like my worlds spinnin' in slow motion
and you're movin' too fast

(chorus)
were you right, was i wrong
were you weak, was i strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah
but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
the chemicals react
the chemicals react

you make me feel out of my element
like i'm drifting out to the sea
like the tides pullin' me in deeper
makin' it harder to breathe

we cannot deny, how we feel inside
we cannot deny

(chorus)
were you right, was i wrong
were you weak, was i strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah
but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
the chemicals react
the chemicals react

kaleidoscope of colors
turning hopes on fire, sun is burning
shining down on both of us
don’t let us lose it (don’t let us lose it...)

(chorus)
were you right, was i wrong
were you weak, was i strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah

we lived
we loved
we hurt
we joked
we're right
we're wrong
we're weak
we're strong
we lived to love

but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
watch the chemicals react
and just like that
the chemicals react
(the chemicals react)

yay i flunked my sci test. pathetic.. UGH. i suck at science!! its just dropping like crazy. from A to fail. wow. pro, eh? english.. situational writing? a little disturbing. yea i use the word DISTURBING. aus? sis? cake? competition? sounds familiar.. well.. not to my actual sis but.. a brother. y the heck m i talking abt this? UGH again.

anyone has an extra lit book? bridge to terabitha? i kinda lost mine..(y is tt not surprising..?) this post is gonna be full of UGHs. so b prepared.. well exams so far just totally wreck my life. fail? well.. not tt i fail any subjects.. but.. expectations r too high.. the pressure. arg.

well the trauma has returned. it keeps playing back in my mind.. the series of events, which i wish tt somehow, could be prevented. it ain't something i'm proud of. it wasn't my fault.. but it haunts me; like a nightmare playing over & over again. unable to concentrate.. the inability to do anything without remembering tt freakin incident. neither is it something tt i wanna broadcast. ppl'd just bug me. should i tell someone? uh huh. i haven't told a soul. not even a non living item. that's how scary it is. the world around me has come tumbling down on me. right on top of me.. crushing every bone in my body. i'm alive, but a soul that gets haunted over and over again. it's silly.. how stuff like tt can ruin ur entire life in 10 to 15 min. that's all it took to make me.. different. i've changed. i'm scared. i don't noe where to run. to hide. to dwell upon my misery. alone. i don't wanna face anyone right now..to pretend everything is the same when so many things haf happened. i don't wanna lie anymore. i wanna live, bathing in the springs of TRUTH. without a single doubt in my mind that something bad will happen.

i'm sorry to all the people around me.. especially the ones who care about me most. i just want to keep to myself. they say time is the medication for stuff like tt. i believe it is too. for now, all i wanna do is.. be healed.. be cured.. be treated. hah it ain't a disease. relax. its the heart and body that hurts.

this post has been rather.. depressing, hasn't it? time to brighten things up. oh gawd. this is wat i mean by PRETENDING! UGHHH!! y do i haf to automatically pretend yet again n again? it's tearing me apart! well, to get along this lie..

channing tatum from she's the man is ADORABLE. HOT. CUTE. ugh!! i saw so many cute guys today.. *blush*.. from joyce's house to j8, to the pool.. to my house.. blah bla blah. hmmm i can't believe my swimming instructor so toot. he believed me wen i said i didnt bring my swimming costume wen i was wearing it! hah! n i was wearing a WHITE shirt over a black costume. gawd. either he act dumb.. or he really is dumb. hazel didnt come.. so it kinda sucked even more. first jia ning quits.. hazel's irregular attendance? asslose's(ashwiin) pressence? too much for me to take! UGH. so yeah, i handed him like 35 bucks, walked outta the pool. went to j8. sat there for 45 min. went home. wow. real productive. not. like i care anyways..

UGH. "......" keeps reminding me of that incident which made me a NERVOUS wreck! i'll die if i go anywhere near em! it just gives me a bigger headache over n over again. hmm how many times haf i typed "over n over again" so far? 3? 4? hah. nvm. sigh..

7/27/2006

it's been a little while since i blogged. LSC is getting worse & worse. sickening!! now she picks on val too.. poor gal. tt freakin ass is so annoying! she said bad stuff to val abt GOD. wth!! she said stuff like "i noe u go to church, but do u believe in god?" or smtg like dat. couldn't hear tt well. won't go into details if not i'll loose my cool..

had maths n history common test today. quite alright i guess. kinda forgot some facts for history. like what chandragupta did.. blah bla blah. wat parameswara did for meleka. blah bla blah.

hah i'm missing tuition YET AGAIN. weeeeeeee!! always give lame excuse.. till so pissed my teacher don even bother scolding me. wahahs! well to u,esp, i'm not tt guai kia as i seem. all my frens can testify for tt!! (=

after the common test, i'm gonna sit with val!! n yak n yak n yak..maybe we'll bully 'him'. then go ditch 'him'. i mean me ditch 'him'. not val. wonder how i'm gonna do it.. yeah.no one noes who i'm refering to.. somehow i'm keeping to myself even more nowadays.. well, hell that's me. gonna be. at least.

today's kinda sad.. jason seems so depressed. poor dude. uh huh we met him. wen hin wen, cher n i went to j8. prank call ppl. edwin, jason,theodore, zane. omg we r psychos!! met him at the playgrnd outside haagen daz.. he was like.. SO DEPRESSED. he kept so much to himself. he had SUCH a BLANK look on his face! made me n hin wen feel like crying again. (frm previous posts, u shld noe we're STILL sad.) cher was like.. erm.. u guys ok? lol sorry cher!

before we met em, we went to try on clothes. hah! all the esplanade drama girls haf decided to go for the grad night! to c our seniors one last time.. drama ain't the same without u guys! like all of u ppl esp the sec 5s!! like.. syed,wei xiang,zane,theodore,jason,ken,amaris,gowri,ngai hon(hahaha!) n de whole drama club seniors of 2006! we all love u!! so we're gonna spend $40 for tt ticket to c ya'll again. n cher n i(maybe hin wen too) r gonna wear the same outfit n dedicate it to u guys! hah! any connection?? watever i noe...

i seriously feel my mom is over reacting. its just a stupid common test! y must she get so.. pissed with me cuz i'm not home before 3.30? sheesh. since my sis ran away, she's been nothing but, well.. over-protective. sorry. but its true. i can't even use com! yea she doesn't noe i'm using the com now. i'm bad. wonder how i got nominated to be a councillor anyways. well, yeah it helps to haf many frens who r councillors ya noe? all that's left is the interview n i'll be wearing BLACK shoes!
note to self: for interview..
1. fold skirt once only
2. pull socks up
3. suck up. (i only do this wen i want it REAL bad. n yeah i really want it. i'm getting 50 bucks if i get into council!!)
4. be friendier n more bubbly den usual..
5. SMILE like crazy!!
6. pin hair up n comb like siao!!
7. hmm.. think more maturely. yup yup

guess that's it. so ya'll who're reading my blog n wants to be a councillor, those r tips tt u shld take note of.

hin wen says if i get into council, i'll be in functions.. ok. wanna place bets, anyone? i'm up for anything as long as it doesn't suck by my standards. oh yeah, if they ask u y u wanna be a councillor, say "i don't know." it always works. just ask ngai hon. i'm SO gonna do that!! LOLs. i'd better get in,man. if not i'm gonna kill him..

7/24/2006

http://www.readersdigest.com.sg/rd/promotions/penpilot/form.jsp yay found it!! crazeeeeey!!

i m in love with paragon!! went there with my sis yesterday for dinner.. at thai express. omg their food is freakinng good!! (: oishi! we had bbq fish with some really hot thai sauce n THE BEST laksa! the stock was like.. fishy n everything. just the way i love it! dessert.. my fav part! [: banana fritters with coconut ice cream. i'm not a fan of coconut.. but this was done really well!!

i had GREAT gelato at icekimo today.. at thompson plaza.. peach gelato. SHIOCK!! omg!! kk i better stop talking abt food le lahhs..

she's the man is quite nice.

darn i haf no mood to blog.. so.. another time..

7/23/2006

i guess it's going alright. pretending is a great way to ignore certain stuff..but will it be better, i wonder.. wen it all comes back to me? a huge stack of troubles, worries,sadness back at me. willi be able to take it? procrastination. y,y,y? even for things i love doing.. i seem to be pushing them back. normal? i think not. even the readers digest competition.. i'm not able to qualify cuz u noe y? cuz i pushed it back.. thinking i had a lot of time another day. even wen i'm completely bored.. i don't seem to do it.

if the people around me would just leave me alone for a while.. i would be able to show the truth. i HATE having to smile wen i'm feeling lousy.. but i'm not even given a choice.. i HAVE to. y do i haf to be my normal self wen i'm not myself now? wth. hate pretending with my parents. it always gets worse.. wish they'd leave me alone for like 1 hr. if only..

he's here. he.. is in my house. the house that I live in. he ain't gonna get out anytime soon. unfortunately..

another he is getting more and more.. fans. girls especially. yea i'm feeling a lil jealous. feeling crappy abt it.. don't even want to say anymore.. haiix..

hmm my match is a cancerian? a taurian n a cancerian? umm.. ok.. cancers-june 21-july 22... right.. i noe a lot a lot of male cancers.. is tt supposed to mean something? well watever

this post has been a waste of time.. but i love LOVE blowing bubbles! bubble gum rocks! wahahs.. i ate so much ice cream. well, gelato actually. i had peach gelato. n the fresh peach flavor is astonishing! the texture was like.. somewhere between a soft serve ice cream n the dense, 'chewy' gelato.. it's just AMAZING. the flavours r so intriguing..surprisingly i found the slight tangy peach flavour refreshing. it's ever so slight tt u can barely notice it.. n the gelato just MELTES in ur mouth.. of course leting u taste it's full flavour b4 melting..omg m i promoting gelato? hah lol i think i'm doin a pretty good job, eh? wat the ehck does blowing bubbles n bubble gum got to do gelato anyway? erm.. k nvm

i'm just gonna go sleep or something. least i can forget everything..

7/22/2006

woots! the performance was a hit! we did really well! weeee!! happy tts it over!! (; we won't ever c the police officers again.. so.. bye. it was nice meeting n working(practising) with ya'll. bye cheah...edwin..bala..(however its spelled..) 2 of our seniors came to watch us perform. so happy!! (: thanks!!

dam.. i'm so tired.. for starters, i slept REALLY late last night after running arnd the whole day.. racial harmony CRAP.. drama.. walked.. guang yang.. cc.. j8.. sku.. mac.. den swam 3km... sigh.. hmm den i walked A LOT to haf dinner becoz of some ass..n in the end.. i didn't eat at all. -_-" arg. i wanna kill em.. so well.. here i was.. carrying a freaking HEAVY bag for like.. the whole day.. my uniform.. drama clothes (consisting of freaking heavy jeans n a.. normal weight shirt..) my swimming stuff.. shoes.. blah blah blah. hmm i wonder how i managed to fit everything inside tt bag of mine.. o i noe! cuz i'm pro, diaos..

in the cc.. clara, amirah n i kept doin the catwalk. so fun!! love ya'll!!

the racial harmony thing was kinda.. dull. sorry hin wen, u're in the NE thing.. n u planned n everything.. i noe.. sorry. we practically walked arnd A LOT. (cuz of tt idiot tt dragged me everywhere with her.. tt freak..) hah sorry. don't mean it. =p

***blahs***

today.. waking up on a saturday morning SUCKS. esp at 8am!! damn!! i was like.. so freakin tired.. i practically had to drag myself outta the house..so tempted to go back n sleep. arg the temptation, ya noe? bla bla bla.. went to guang yang..practised.. warmed up. and man! the teachers(mr koh..wana lim..miss wong..) played an freaking bad joke on us. so dam convincing lor..they made it seem like they were fightin.. n it was like..the whole production would be over cuz of them. wahh catfight n the like. pro sia..acting rawks!! (:

***after the production***

we went to buy bubble tea. n went to mac with clara.. hin wen.. rachel..cherilyn..navin.. i ate SO much! burger..fries..coke.. tea. argh.. then i had chicken wings.. -_-" ok fine.. 1 only. but it was like..huge! navin is so nice! he followed us to buy eyeliner.. try on clothes.. n perfume.. makeup.. blahs. he was even willing to haf GIRLS perfume on him. well..not like he had a choice or anything.. but he barely complained. n he had a bad bad headache! ): poor dude.. recover soon kays? we saw a tiny lil bit of singapore idol.. so many ppl.. so we went to the basket ball court..nah only cherilyn,hin wen n i. navin n clara left. (rachel left earliest..) we played truth. hah we bian tai.. keep talking abt making out.. we even pranked jason n told him cherilyn wanted to make out with him. freakingly funny!! ^_^ hehe.. yea it has no relation to truth.. but.. we were bored..

we went to hin wen's house to 'study'. i pretended to b cherilyn n she pretended to be me. her mom doesnt really allow anyone to go to her house unless its for studying purposes.. so we pretended tt 'kimberly'(act by cherilyn) is in sec 2. n me, 'cherilyn' pretend to be in 1 joy. tt part didnt change.. we just sat at the dining table n i pretended to be doin sec 2 maths cuz my tuition teacher teaches me in advance.. i had to act all clever n all. wat could we do wen we don't even haf any books to study in the 1st place??!! so we just sat there.. with hin wen's sec 2 books n passed messages.. sms n writing on paper. LOL. we're pros.. n very wu liao ones..

blah even more..

my dad picked me up.. so here i am.. blogging. gonna miss the 3 dudes. hah torturing them esp!! hmm i wish i took a photo of edwin looking all nerdy with hin wen in her all white together.. alomst holding hands!! sorry again hin wen.. but well..

i guess there ain't much to blog abt now.. just tt i'm tryna forget my depression. is avoiding it an option? do i haf a choice? my choice is to be left alone while i'm in this mood. i HATE pretending to be ok and smile wen i'm not. y must i keep lying to myself?! argh!! o damn. n i have to pretend tt nothing ever happened? this is much harder den i tot it would be. darn darn darn darn!!! wth.. forget it,kim.. forget it.

the CA is so stressful. y must everyone expect me to be like the best n study 24/7?! pressure.. i dont work well with it. me n pressure. uh uh. i'll completely ignore it. n it takes a down toll on me. i am so not the type to do watever i haf to if tons of ppl r expecting a lot from me... ugh. i'm weird.. watever ppl.. cya..

7/20/2006

i hate my freakinn life. hate hate hate! my depression is starting to ruin my life.. not dat my life was really really nice or anything.. it's just.. bearable.. but now? hah! 3 words.. SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.

mrs LSC took my phone n threw it 2 times! FUCK! i don care! i'll say it!! FUCK! arg!! i wanna kill tt woman! anyhow accuse ppl..pick on ppl n now throw ppl's phone!!! freak tt fugly ass bitch!! i wanna throw bowling balls tt weigh 30kg!! its heavy but it'll b my anger tt gives me strength to throw em at her!! so i was angry.. but it's depression tts taking over now.. i do get over setbacks pretty fast.. but this one ain't gonna let me go.. nothing seems to excite me anymore.. i wan hin wen n navin to cry with.. n cherilyn too i guess. most of u ppl wont noe y i'm depressed.. i cant remember if i posted the reason y in my last post at all.. who cares anyway???

i hate today..i hate music lesson. music turned to be attire checking. damn she found out tt i used string!! n made me take it off n tuck in my shirt in my skirt. so uncomfortable n my shirt was tucked in so high!! n i had to do it infront of my whole class. depressed.

i can't explain y i feel depressed. many of u wont ever noe.. n i dont care either. sch? i won't bother saying anything more.. this whole post's a total drag. a complete drag. i wish i had u by my side to take me thru... too bad u were just using me all along to get wat u want.. i'd do so many things i could for u..if u just asked me, things would've been different. right now, i just wanna b left alone.. to die. don't try to act like u care wen u really don't.. ur sugar coated words won't affect me anymore.. where were u wen my world is n was crashing down? even now.. u're no where to be found. it ain't only to me too.. wat abt all those girls n their feelings u played with? don't u feel guilty? my best fren got caught up in ur vaccuum.. only to turn on me becos of u. i, too was sucked up in ur vaccum,n i was melted by the way u said my name.. hah! a lie.. tt was. how could i haf been tt stupid?

i'm sorry ellie..i was late n i didnt even meet u. my silly battery died on me.. perfect timing..

now i haf to write a compo.. readers digest. it doesnt seem to get me excited at all. my world's a blurr.. nothin is clear. all my frens r lying..well not all.. backstabbing, deceiving.. bad mouthing, u noe it. they do it.. right now all the ppl i love r.. xue ying..victoria lim.. hin wen..valerie(mallory).. joyce.. ASH..

wow, as i'm blogging this.. someone just lied to me. my close fren.. deception.. lies.. illusions.. y cant my life b clear? y???!!! ugh. i told cha this would b shity. don't like it? don't read it. BYE

7/19/2006

yo dudes n dudettes. mon n tues was a blast! the only thing tt i'll mention abt sku so far.. is tt the most HATED teacher on my list now is none other den my form teacher. fugly bitch. anyhow accuse ppl de!! freak her!! well lemme start frm the beggining.. mrs LSC saw a flower pot hanging on lennel's table. she asked who it was.. obviously no one answered. she said there was a devilish girl who did it. flower pot hanging on a table's a bad thing? doesnt even mean anything!! anyways shalin didnt come 2 sku ysd.. so i sat in her place. the f-ing yong en HAD to tell mrs loh. well she said " u r the devilish girl who put it there, right?" with out waiting for an answer, she just walked out if the classroom! i was laughing den cuz she called me devilish.

later i tot abt it n got quite angry, fuck! tt woman anyhow accused me! wth! i was pissed lorrs. accuse me cuz i change place? now she's making me to b a very bad person! she told shalin not to talk 2 me!! bad influence?! excuse me SHE ain't tt guai k? its just mrs LSC is BIASED!! freak la. well since shalin doesnt want to tell mrs LSC the truth.. that she aint guai kia n everything.. nor did she speak up for me.. i think she doesnt want to continue our frenship. since i'm such a bad influence, i''ll stay away from her. haiix but i can't really blame her. it would just make things a lot a lot a lot worse.. fuck LSC

after sku, clarity, ash n i went to j8. ate lunch at mac.. as usual.. den we went window shopping. hahs we decided to try on clothes without buying. so fun! lemme tell u.. don ever do tt in F.WOMEN. ever. the guy was like glaring at us lorrs. seiyu is good to do tt. really. did tt on mon n tues. SO FUN!! wahahs!

today.. fine day actually..till chi lesson. felt angry cuz victoria a. sabo-ed victoria lim.. den me. all cos she sat in the empty seat next to victoria lim.(val didnt come again) freak la. den chi teacher punish ME wen it was HER fault. i m SO not sitting near her again! n it so aint the 1st time.. chi teacher kept me till 2.15 cos of vic a!! drama start at 2! late sia! i met clarity n navin. clarity found out something abt someone.. tt jerk. navin was backstabbed. i felt used, betrayed n backstabbed. we were all so depressed like hell. till we all cried.. sigh.. yeah all 3 of us. even navin. the whole drama club was like.. "r u ok?" heh.. it felt silly lying tt i felt ok wen i didnt. we all had suicidal thoughts.. it sucked. our lives.. i was even willing to miss a session of drama cuz i was so depressed i just wanted to curl up n cry..

like an hr later.. we began to feel better. drama's the remedy. really.. we felt better! tons better! hmmm it was kinda weird cuz edwin asked me y i cried. pai seh!! i hate having ppl c me cry.. hate hate hate! of course i hate mrs LSC more la.. but i'm not gg go into tt matter. we played games during the time tt we were supposed to b rehearsing cuz teachers were too busy.. played truth or dare and honey if u love me would u pls just smile.. it was fun fun fun!!!! instant cheer up. i just love clarity n cherlyn.. u guys made me feel so much better! hearts!!

arg. i g2g soon.. sighs.. wish i could blog more but.. well.. sayonara! blasting off into depression once again.

7/16/2006

it really surprises me how easily we can b affected by the ppl arnd us.. take kai lin for example.. she's changed so much till she's like any normal girl.. not astounding in any way.. she used to be a goth.. a goth tt didnt care wat ppl said or tot abt her. too bad she's changed.. wat is happening to this world of ours?? y r we becoming so easily manipulated so as to be clones? y r we becoming the same?? Y? y r we all likin the same ppl n stuff, disliking the same stuff n ppl? i've come to realise one thing this past year.. the world today is no longer wat it is anymore. how sad.. how can we not notice something is happening in this great big world of ours?!

When music really mattered and when radio was king, when accountants didn't have control and the media couldn't buy ur soul. And computers were still scary and we didn’t know everything. When pop stars still remained a myth, And ignorance could still be bliss. And when God Save the Queen she turned a whiter shade of pale. When my mom and dad were in their teens and anarchy was still a dream and the only way to stay in touch was a letter in the mail.

wat the shit is wrong with our world??!! i love this modern world of ours but i feel somewhat.. well.. disappointed... too ughed out, ya get wat i mean? its a'right if ya dont.. tons of ppl dont even care anyways.. so y would an arse like u? no offense. not. just think abt it.. hardly any one does in this world other den hippies n me. but i'm so not a hippie.

hah..my mom's coming home tonight. woots! wahahs i can't wait! i'd so rather live with my mom den my grandma.. cuz my mom gives me more freedom den my grandma. n by my mom's standards..my grandma IS SO STRICT. so.. yea watev. i noe.. this post is crappy.. don bug me abt it. ever. if ya do.. y'd ya bother coming to my blog in the 1st place?? d'oh... cuz u wanna read wat i post right? hehe pw protected so u bitches can't c watever i blog. tts right. bitch.

duh i'm pissed. y can't tt freaking sucker just leave me alone instead of asking me to send her emoticons?! i blocked her n she email me. f***!!! she didnt just email me once.. she sent me 43 emails in like.. hmm wait lemme check. 10 minutes.. wat the toot lah... f-ing annoying! now ppl keep talking to me wen i don't want em to. i want to b left alone now. i'm in an unreasonable mood now, don get in my way. till i'ma out of it. o f***!! the TV got so many censored sounds! either change the channel jie.. OR turn off the volume!! unreasonable. i did warn ya'll. blame it on urself for bothering to read this post.

i'm not gonna bother posting any other fashion pics till the F-ED UP CENSORED SOUNDS ON MTV DONT STOP. f u freaking girl who watches stupid tv! omfg!! even more censore sounds! i'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pisssssssssssssedddddddddddddddddd!!! ugh!!! oh tt made me feel better. weeee i'm not in my unreasonable mood no more! (: too bad i don feel like blogging no more. so..

toooooooooodlesssss!!

7/15/2006

i LOVE fashion. LOVE IT!! so much fun dressing up! i'd post all the pics of clothes if there i were able to. too bad i gotta take it slow. well.. here ya go. i'll post 5 everyday. i'll design some too... it's freaking fun! here ya'll go. sha.. look at em everytime huh? btw my scrapbook of drawings r in my locker. ew.. remind me to copy it all down den burn my scrap book. or mayb i'll disinfect it. like it will work, blahs! anyways.. back to the drawing table..

7/14/2006

wow. wow. wow. it's surprising how someone's love can be so deep that it can actually last 6 yrs. i'm talking abt crushes. not bgrs. PRO. too bad the freaking guy doesn want to accept her. that jerk. if she were my bff..i'd pity her so much tt i would jump off the building cuz of grief. thankfully, i'm not.

i'm at my dad's house & i'm frigging bored. wat else is new? now instead of being hungry, i'm thirsty. -_-" diaos. this farmland seaweed 'flavour' chips r real good.. i'm eating like there's no tmw. that's y i'm not hungry.. i post the weirdest of things. now ya noe y ellie & i get along so well, don't cha??

i'm STILL hafing shoulder n neck pain. y won't i ever do warm ups first b4 my killer work-out??? ugh!! oh man.. victoria is spamming me with emoticons.. erms dots.. -_-" watever.

oh yeah i forgot to post abt photo day.(did i even mention it in the first place??) well i think it was a distaster. i shldn't haf cut my hair. cuz the wind blows my hair & makes it stand. WTH!! n so many ppl haf said i look better last time.. haiix. i think i look ok wen my hair obeys me but it gets rebellious.. hate it. reason y i cut my hair, kai hong, is cuz everywhere u turn in sku, r girls with tied long hair. i wanna b different, so i haf short hair. is tt a prob? but so wat if i look weird?? i M WEIRD for ur info.. of cos i wanna look nice. who wouldn't? but oh crap. like i'll listen to u fools for following the crowd. indivisuality rawks. it's wat make the world go round n keeps us from dying of boredom cuz everyone looks,talks,eats,looks the same. esp for ppl like me who get bored easily.

enuf abt tt. my sat has been pretty boring.. ntg much happening at all. omg i serously LOVE yahoo avatars!! they haf clothes tt r so hot. yea tts the reason y i created an account in the first place. "walao.. u v bo liao right?" kai hong's msg to me. wahahs!! told cha..

exams r coming. not surprisingly, i don feel pressured at all. i just watch my peers mugging n bla blah bla. i'm naturally smart. i don study or listen to wat the teacher is saying or writing n i can get top 15. the irony.. some ppl study all day long n barely even pass while here i m just playing all day long n i'm top 15. or was it 10? sorri. i wasn't listening to teacher talking.. hahs like i said, naturally smart!! wahahs! self-praise is international disgrace. i noe wat u're thinking dudes n dudettes. i noe.. now ya noe y i'm so lackasidical. (something like dat..) my behavior explained.

i signed up for a conversational jap class.. i chao hope to be able to blog abt my blog only in full fluent jap for him! too bad it's only like 1 session? on tues or something. o crap. i haf something on tues.. wat the heck is it? arg i got a feeling tt i haf somethin but i cant remember wat.. erms well.. uhh.. anyone noes? awww man, looks like i haf 2 sms everyone t check. shit. is it the day to watch POTC2? can't watch on aug 4th anymore.. don think it'll be showing so long. is it..? or is it the day tt my mom comes back n i haf 2 go airport? o wait.. my mom's coming home on sunday or mon.. ehh.. nvm i'll take the long way, haiixz. yay my mom's coming home soon! n she's got tons of nice stuff for my sis & i!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! lols i'm like an idiot now..

stop calling me naive ppl. it's annoying. i don even noe y u call me naive anyways. omg.. i just foung someone tt looks EXACTLY like joyce!! OMG!! well, i'll go post tt pic some other time.. lazier den usual now. lazier 2 continue blogging, so bye!

zzzzzzzzzzzz.. opps sorri. i fell asleep for 10 seconds cuz i was too tired.. yea swimming as usual. swam 60 laps today. i need 2 die. my speed is gd.. but my stamina 100% SUCKS. i swim freestyle n backstroke 20 laps tired le ah!! i m SO famished! the only thing tt i've eaten today was a burger for recess. I'M SO HUNGRY & I DON'T HAF DINNER!! i don wan eat bei bei mian. sian la.. ntg better to eat.. forget it. diet (:

my day was pretti fine. mrs loh lost her head. she was f-ing MAD. all cuz our classroom was messy. den she yakked abt us not listening to her n soon she's gonna quit being our form teacher...bla bla blah. tempted to pull down my socks today while she was yakking wen she suddenly look at me n said "i've told all of u not to wear ankle socks or to pull down ur sku socks" *looks at me for 20 seconds* *i blush.. of embarassment lahhs* she tells stacia to tie her hair up for the like 5th time. n scolds her blah blah. this part i was smiling like a freak.

pe was so FUN. girls played badminton while guys play bball. n ben does not noe how 2 throw or dribble a ball. jking, sorry! i played wiht ash,shalin n wan yee. later i played with ragu, mitchell,nat chua n benjamin. me VS the 4 of them. diaos. actually ash, shal n wan yee were there but the boys purposely make the shuttle thingy go to me.. now ragu wants a 1 on 1. no problem. i'll take u on any time. n kick ur sick butt! hahahaha! no offense. i wont win de lah..

rest of sku was.. boring. not gonna blog abt it much.. before drama.. renice, ellie n pretty much most of the drama girls frm esplanade performance met for 'lunch'. didnt eat at all.. -_-" i kicked ellie's butt so many times! literally. i've passed it frm Xy to her. i ain't les. just pissing ppl off. (16 times. ya i counted) drama was good. fun! fun! fun! i took videos of edwin n ellie. oh man she was so pissed with me.. edwin is like strong. really. he took my phone away frm me n he put it into his pocket. i'm not tt despo, ain't gonna reach into his pocket. but.. ahh nvm. i could barely even take it back frm him lorrs.. his grip is damn tight lor. ellie complained too. so it ain't just me.

after drama we went to mac. as usual. it seems like our hangout now. everyday its "wen we gg to mac?" instead of the usual "r u gg to mac?" c the difference? i went straight to swimming later. omg my shoulders r aching! my load was SO heavy. i was carrying sku bag n my silly swimming bag! WTF. i cam home wearing nike shorts n KCP pe uni, pai seh!! n i was carrying a ripcurl plastic bag with my shoes.. n my converse bag with my swimming bag inside. HEAVY. i need a massage. badly need!! args... i'm so tired.. n hungry. i want ice cream so much..! well i'm gonna try to solve my food prob now. tata!

7/12/2006

i promised XY i'd upload more pics of c. ronaldo.. so here they are!

this is the substitute for the song tt i currently LOVE. it would've been sayonara to breaking free but.. there wasn't even CHRISTINA AGUILERA on iwebmusic.com can u believe it? she's so popular!! idiot much.. k nvm

de choral reading was shity. so embarassing. i need 2 cry. serious. i dont even want to talk abt it. just tt like a lot of ppl smsed me LOLS. haiix.. nvm, like 18 ppl if i'm not wrong. fantastic larrs.. just wat i wanted 2 start my day.. sighs..

i made a new fren today. renice. i love tt name. i heard it only a few times my whole life. so unique!!! met her thru hin wen. at the library. cuz of some borrowing book thingy. i love books! u wont believe me wen i tell u i'm actually a book worm. but currently the % of magazines i haf more den books r 40% more. believe. but i seriously LOVE BOOKS!! lol ok stupid thing 2 say now anyways..

we had drama today. now cuz there's a performance for crime prevention of something.. we only haf 30 min 2 eat (at macdonalds) n RUSH back. as in run. nah.. walk fast. hah.. ellie n i had a mcflurry n coke. o & she had a packet of fries too. which she dunked into my mcflurry. it had this disgusting oily taste in my mcflurry. so disgusting.. cant believe i ate a quarter of the mcflurry n i felt full. -_-" well actually so did hin wen. only shalin finished her nuggets, fries n coke. pro. even after drama.. we went 2 mac AGAIN N ATE. we r so getting fat..

drama was ok.. not very fun. i was just sitting there stoning. not much acting to be done at all. hahahahahhahaha hin wen is playing as edwin's girlfren!! n he is the FUNNIEST guy EVER!! he made franciscus laugh like.. an idiot!! muahahahhahs!!

damn damn damn. ppl keep asking me to do this type of stuff n wont stop bugging me till i do it. so here goes..

RULES: Do the following without complains. Choose 5 people to do this after you have completed yours. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged.

YOUR TEN FAVOURITES
favourite colors: every colour actually.. no favs..
favourite food: pretty much everything..
favourite song: OMG there r like tons!
favourite movie: -_-" do i haf 2 repeat my self? TONS
sport: duh? u must b an idiot if u dont know. SWIMMING!!
favourite ice-cream flavours: cookies & cream
favourite countries: PARIS,Japan,Europe,USA
favourite thing: my phone

YOUR NINE CURRENTS
current mood: bored.. happy?
clothes: Orange shirt & shorts.
current desktop: A pictue of the PCD!!
current toe nails: Its natural
colourcurrent time: huh?
current annoyance: ASSES.
current thoughts: bzzzzzzzzzzt. barely any
How bad everything seems to turn outcurrent songs: duno. too lazy to think.

YOUR EIGHT FIRST
first boyfriend: hello? public much..
first crush: Can't remember
first movie: Can't remember
first piercing: Primary 1.. or 2
first lie: I bet I started to lie when I first learnt how to talk
first music: Probably Twinkle Twinkle Little Stars. Like i know
first cry: 10 may
past le ahh..

YOUR SIX LAST
last drink: Water
last crush: like i would say here
last movie seen: just my luck?
last phone call: uhh.. i duno
last cd played: PCD

FIVE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING:
erm.. tee-shirt.. shorts.. tts all?

FOUR THINGS YOU HAVE DONE TODAY:
1) breathe
2) yawn
3) talk
4) draw my leg...

THREE THINGS YOU HEAR RIGHT NOW:
1) Breaking Free from High School Musical
2) Myself typing
3) My sister snoring. (hah not really..)

TWO THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
1) My phone
2) FOOD

ONE THING I DO WHEN IM BORED:
sms people.

WHO I WANT TO DO THIS:
1) joyce
2) amirah
3) hin wen
4) hazel
5) valerie (malorie... LOL)

sabo AGAIN

7/11/2006

yet another embarassing thing is gonna happen to me.. guess wat? well for the coral reading thing..(which sucks btw..) I.. wait. i'm looking for the underlining thing now.. where is it..? err.. ok nvm i'm only wasting my time.. neways I haf 2 be the idoit dat has 2 act for our poem..

"go to ur room"
he screams
As i walk
with every step
i feel its the end of my dreams
I've tried to talk to u
But u nvr seem to hear.
u dont even haf a clue
what this is doing to me
as i sit in my room and cry
i feel like i'm going to die
I hide under a blanket and hear a knock on my door
i wish they would let me be
As i fall into a deep sleep
Only then i feel free

hah! thats it. N I HAF 2 ACT FOR IT. freaking shit! lucky only lower sec lah.. whole sku i will seriously DIE. oh man.. i got 'tricked' by ashley to be the girl from the poem.. watever.

______'s life-saving quest
Please state five people. for the one you love/like the most.
people,don't kill me. no offense,ya'll.
1)Joyce
2)Xue ying
3)Ashlee
4)Shalin
5)Victoria

What's the most intimate thing you've down with (1)?
i'm not a lesbian!!

Have you ever kissed (5) before?
Not reading properly? I'M NOT A LES!!

What's the most recent thing you did with (3)?
talked to her on msn.

What are (2)'s bad habits?
hardly anything, untidy, maybe?

Is (4) an introvert or extrovert?
-_-" dumb question. EXTROVERT

Who does (3) resemble?
Chi Zue from THE CELESTIAL ZONE. LOL!!

What are (4) 's hobbies?
plotting evil plans. LOL (:

Last but not least, choose five people to do this quest.
.ASHLEE.
.AMIRAH.
.HIN WEN.
.JOYCE.
.CLARA.

muahahs! i sabo people!! (: weeeeeeeeeee!!

7/10/2006

weeeee!!! italy won the match! yeah!! i won $50!! hahs like real... if only it was true. i love u italy! thanks for beating france!! *muacks* i only won abt 10 bucks. but i think i gotta give shalin $15 soon. or was it $25? dots.. well it was cuz i bet mrs loh wouldnt choose my compo for the compo. i forgot she has a way 2 get mrs loh 2 choose mine.. sigh. bye my beloved $15 or $25.. whichever.

anyways i went 2 watch just my luck with ashley today. i think i over-estimated the show. kinda disappointing n well.. sad to say.. boring. but today, on the way 2 j8, a freakin THING landed on my shirt! i screamed n screamed like a mental patient. i've got mental problems but i ain't a patient. OMG it was like orange n black n had many many feet! hahs my new skin colours. i freaked n freaked. i was like jumping up n down non-stop. that sure attracted tons of stares.. but if it landed on my arm or anything, i think i would've bitten my arm off. yea i hate bugs or scorpions or caterpillars or anything like tt. even butterflies. actually i like their beautiful wings but i hate the thing or insect that has the wings. yeh i ain't making sense now. i noe.

oh man there's a lit test tmw. n i haf TONS of hw to do.. crap. i haven't even bought textbooks n certain workbooks yet! damn damn damn. i guess the good thing's tt i don haf to sit with ragu/nat gay. mrs loh doesn't remember!! Woots! toot ah.. o darn i don't noe where my bridge of teribithia book is! die! tmw got test! damn damn damn.. better go borrow book again. hah i love this system of ppl (mostly me..) borrowing other ppls books den returning later cuz they either lost it or forgot to bring.. so convienient.. muahahs! just like me to do stuff like dat. i noe.. well any1 wanna watch POTC 2? on aug 4th? (xy's bday toots!! somehow we haf a hung up abt watching rlly cool movies not on some1's bday. don ask y.)

again my grandma forces me to eat.. but her chicken shop today was good. my grangma gave my sis 2 pieces. (they're huge!) hahs n i only got 1. biased! o wait.. its a good thing! my sis gets FATER!! YES!! hehe i'm evil.. hehe shld feed her more.. den she will ask me to x-change skirt sizes with her. yeah!! den i don haf 2 wear stoopid skirt tt is so loose anymore! so loose tt even haf 2 wear belt n after folding n altering the size.. lolx..

my blog is so troublesome.. n i suck at all this techy stuff. in case u're a bit slow n dont noe tt now.. aww man. i needa get ash to help me. damn she rocks at this.. unlike an idiot here.. diaos..
bleahs.. i duno wat i shld do.. bored.. got hw to do but i haf no idea where my books r.. man i gotta buck up. CAs coming very soon. like 2 weeks? or was it 3? garsh i don even noe.. watever. think i'll go 'repair' my silly frustrating blog..

toodles ya'll! (: $158.25 to dearie!

7/09/2006

my sis&i went 2 catch the match at our gramp's house ysd..ended up spending the night there. i can't remember the last time we actually stayed over.. it seems so long ago..nvm that so ain't the issue. well abt the game. i hate PETIT!! that ass! he's a traitor!! he helped germany score a goal!WTF?! freak him la.. i must say the 21 year old german guy who scored is quite good. but oliver kahn is the best goalie!! worst is por's goalkeeper..(ricardo) -_-" so easy 2 block also cannot. but.. PETIT IS THE FREAKIEST ASS!!!! i wanna throw eggs n tomatoes for him!! if u toots can't guess which team i'm rooting for now.. u deserve 2 b burried alive. sheesh. germany has THE BEST GOALIE!! TOO GOOD LE!! poor por only scored once. & it was like.. an accident. he (i forgot who le.. pai seh)was flying.. another dude kicked the ball.. kahn blocked.. but the guy who was flying very qiao his head hit the ball n landed in the net. err.. ok i'm gettign confused with my sentence... dots.. nvm

i guess u guys must b wondering y there's c. ronaldo's picture here. he's getting cuter every time i look at his pics. lolx XY's influence! the pics r for her!! go xy!! rock on girl! hahs y m i talking abt her anyways?

watching football is like so addictive. i'm gonna stay up n watch tonight. i really want italy 2 win!! i so freakinn hate france..GO ITALY!! lolerz. thankfully sku starts later tmw.. if not i'll be a walkin zombie tmw. cuz i won't sleep after the match till like 4++. eating ice cream or chips.. i forgot 2 mention tt i ate A LOT ysd with my gramps. like curry puff.. chips.. yoghurt.. omg my grandma 'forced' me to eat! i was BLOATED!! woke up today still feelin stuffed. but my grandma bought EVEN more food 2 my house..i mean to the house tt i live in. lolx. n eat again. darn i'll come home really late this week till my mom gets back. least she doesnt give me so much to eat. o man, i STILL feel so full.. needa puke!! *bleahs* ok i'll stop talking abt how bloated i feel. makes me wanna puke more..

er.. wat else shld i blog abt? i guess my day? my sunday was so boring. didnt go church cuz it was raining so much.. o man there's d&t tmw. n guys.. try to conceal ur surprise cuz i found my timetable k? i hate d&t!! i'd rather take f&n like my sis or art! least i got an A for both.. sheesh. hmmm but thinking of using a saw strangely appeals 2 me.. for 1joy ppl, i'm sure u noe wat i'm thinking.. for others i aint gonna tell ya! muahahs!!

blehs.. i must sit with ragu or nat gay in class. ya wanna noe y? biang, too pai sei to even mention. man, yu teng's gonna hate me. SORRY!! n its RIGHT infront of the class. WTF?! i haf 2 bring every single book 2 sku n i can't use my phone!! but the worst thing.. is sitting directly infront of chua yong en!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANNOT LIVE WITH THAT. FOR LIKE 1 & A HALF MONTHS SOMEMORE!! I CAN DIEEEEEEEEE... oh mama n papi. dear lord.. PUH LEASE (pretty pretty pretty pls..)help me escape this one!sitting infront of CYE is a catastrophe!! a disaster!! a.. *sigh* calm down kim.. calm down. "breathe in slowly.. now breathe out.. relaxxxxxxxxxxx..." hope mrs loh doesn't remember tt i haf 2 change place.. i better start hoping tt i m invisible now. this time.. i want to be!! *sobs* my life will be even worse wen i tell u nat chua is sitting next to CYE. both chuas.. r gonna make my life a LIVING HELL!! ok not so bad.. but.. CYE's gonna make fun of cristanoe ronaldo! i mean.. c. ronaldo is like f-ing hot! hah i choose to believe CYE is just jealous of his looks n skills. eat my dust!! lol now this time its personal..

now its time for dinner.. -____-" i'm gg 2 die!! omg!! i cant eat anymore! haiix. mom! faster come home! i miss ya!! I CANT EAT ANYMORE. ANY1 IN SKU ASKS ME 2 EAT I'M GONNA SLAP U!! 1 meal for my grandma is 2 n a half meals for me!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! oh no.. she's asking me 2 eat now.. haiix. bye ya'll.. hope my skirt size doesn't increase..

7/08/2006

Ladies and gentlemen, Ladies and gentlemen,This is a Jazze Phizal (Jazze Phizal) productshizzle,Missy (Missy),The princess is here,(She's here) Ciara, This beat is

Automatic Supersonic Hypnotic, funky fresh Work my body so melodic,The beat flows right through my chest,Everybody Ma and poppy Came to party,Grab somebodyWork your body, work your body,Let me see you 1, 2 step

Rock it, don't stop it,Everybody get on the floor,crank the party up,We about to get it on,(Let me see ya)1,2 step,(I love it when ya 1,2 step)(Everybody)1,2 step,We about to get it on (this beat is)

OutrageousSo contageousMake you crave it (Jazze made it!)So retarded, top charted,Ever since the day I started,Strut my stuff and yes i flaunt it,Goodies make the boys jump on it (Jump on it)No i can't control myself,Now let me do my 1, 2 stepRock it, don't stop it,Everybody get on the floor,crank the party up,We about to get it on,(Let me see ya)1,2 step,(I love it when ya)1,2 step(Everybody)1,2 step,We about to get it on (this beat is)[Missy](Now we gonna step it like this Hooooweee!)

It don't matter to me,We can dace slow(Ladies and gentlemen),Whichever way the beats drop,Our bodies will go(I like this ah),So swing it over here,Mr. DJ,(Hey, Hey)And we will, we wil rock you up It don't matter to me,We can dance slow(Dance slow yeah)Whichever way the beats drop,Our bodies wil go,So swing overhere, Mr. DJ,(Ladies and Gentlemen),

And we will, we will rock you,(Let's shake!)[Missy]I shake it like jello,Make the boys say hello,Cause they know im rockin' the beat(Rocking the beat)I know you heard about a lot of great MC's,But the aint got nothing on me (nothing on me),Because i'm 5 foot 2,I wanna dance with you,And im sophisticated fun,I eat filet mignon,And i'm nice and young,Best believe im number one(Whoa)

Rock it, don't stop it,Everybody get on the floor,Wake the party up,We about to get it on,(Let me see ya'll)1,2 step,(I love it when ya'll)1,2 step(Everybody)1,2 step,We about to get it on (this beat is)Rock it, don't stop it,Everybody get on the floor,Wake the party up,We about to get it on,(Let me see ya)1,2 step,(I love it when ya)1,2 step(Everybody)1,2 step,We about to get it on (this beat is)This is for the hearing impaired,A Jazze Pha production, (oooohweee), (oooohwee)

muahahs. i'm obsessed with lyrics. just now it was SOS by rihanna. now 1,2 step by ciara n some other guy. lol..

7/07/2006

so much for my momentary short happiness.. it's all gone now. all i wanna do now is curl up n fade away. now i'm really glad i'm invisible..


Lalala lalala la la lala la OhhhYou know... I never felt like this beforeLalala lalala la la lala la OhhhFeels like.. so real

I'm obsessive when just one thought of you comes upI'm aggressive just one thought of closing upYou got me stressing, incessantly pressing the issue'Cause every moment gone you know I miss youI'm the question and you're of course the answerJust hold me close boy 'cause I'm your tiny dancerYou make me shaken up, never mistakenBut I can't control myself, got me calling out for help

S.O.S. please someone help me.It's not healthy... for me to feel this way.Y.O.U. are making this hard,I can't take it, see it don't feel rightS.O.S. please someone help meIt's not healthy... for me to feel this wayY.O.U. are making this hardYou got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

This time please someone come and rescue me'Cause you on my mind it's got me losing itI'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of meLove is testing me but still I'm losing itThis time please someone come and rescue me'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing itI'm lost, you got me looking for the rest of me,Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it

Just your presence and I second guess my sanityYes it's a lesson, it's unfair, you stole my vanityMy tummy's up in knots so when I see you I get so hotMy common sense is out the door, can't seem to find the lockTake on me (uh huh) you know inside you feel it right

Take me on I'm put desire up in your arms tonight

Take me on, I could just die up in your arms tonight.I'm out with you, you got me head over heelsBoy you keep me hanging on the way you make me feel

S.O.S. please someone help me.It's not healthy... for me to feel this wayY.O.U. are making (Y.O.U.) this hard,You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

This time please someone come and rescue me'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it ('Cause you on my mind)I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of meLove is testing me but still I'm losing itThis time please someone come and rescue me (someone come and rescue me)'Cause you on my mind got me losing itI'm lost, you got me looking for the rest of me,Got the best of me, so now I'm losing itBoy, you know you got me feeling openAnd boy, your loves enough with words unspokenI said boy I'm telling you, you got me openI don't know what to do it's trueI'm going crazy over you,I'm begging

S.O.S. please somebody help me.It's not healthy... for me to feel this wayY.O.U. are making this hard (are you making this hard for me, baby?),You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

This time please someone come and rescue me (someone rescue me)'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing itI'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of meLove is testing me but still I'm losing itThis time please someone come and rescue me'Cause you on my mind got me losing it ('cause any time)I'm lost you, got me looking for the rest of me,Got the best of me (best of me), I'm losing it

Lala lala lala lala OhhhOhh ohh lala lala lala lalaOh oh.

damn i'm pissed.. i've been feeling invisible since like the middle of last week.. difference is.. only now.. i'm feeling more so. is it me.. or is it the people arnd me that make me feel this way? at least i haf someone who noes i'm not invisible n understands how i feel.. thanks kai hong!! love u tons! n sheesh i don't like him. infact.. i don't think i haf to say this anymore. i'm so invisible that no one would actually bother reading my blog. like i said.. i'm invisible. and i haf a feeling its gg 2 last for quite some time.. don't get me wrong.. kai hong is SO not invisible. he's.. obvious. nah not the correct word.. erms.. uhh.. nvm

well.. i'm supposed 2 be at my dad's house now. thankfully i gave a brilliant excuse n i only haf 2 see him at noon. gd luck sis.. ya gg need it with me outta the way. o yeah i keep forgetting. I'M INVISIBLE. people dont care if i'm there or not. i'll bet they don even notice.. haiix.. i'd really love to talk to someone now.. too bad no one will noe wen i'm around. only kai hong. or my cat. which is so f-ing kaaaaauuuuuuuuttttttteeeeeeeee!!!!! but he won't understand.. he'll only look at me with his beautiful big eyes.. n meow. den mayb he'll curl up n sleep. guess it leaves me with kai hong. i long for the days wen i could be heard.. & be seen by everyone.

wat shld i do at a time like this.. hmm.. i noe! haf brunch with KH!! i mean its like 10 plus only.. n its not like anyone can c me. i'm invisible for christ sake!! how many times must i say this? (or type it..) yeh n i'm really hungry. i feel like eating.. roti prata!! haha eating cheers me up.. no i wanna eat at swensens! or cafe cartel!! den make him pay! lol i'm jking.. wonder if he's busy now.. if he is.. i guess i'll just sit n stare at my computer screen n stone. n type too of course.. i'm off to call him i guess.. adious!

K-aren I-ngrid M-ichelle B-ernice E-llie R-achel L-ana Y-vette. if u're smart, u'll noe wat it means. idiot.

arlos..hmm how shld i start..? well erm ok. sku was ok. boring as usual. for PE we did silly gymnastics tt made us look like idiots. really.. idiots.. us. really. not jking. TKL was like loling all the time lorrs... at least he praised my class for being warm. its just mainly us girls. the guys r.. erm.. nvm i'll keep it ta myself. err.. chinese test. hah i had no idea there was a test today, only wen i got to sku den ppl asked me if i read the duno wat it's called book den i found out there was a test today.. yeah diaos.. -_-" the test didnt go well for me. i had no idea wat questions were asked...

now i haf 2 sit next 2 ragu or nat gay. cuz i said i 'couldn't c'. WTF!! stupid teacher! frigging ass! somemore its right infront... haiix. the readers digest competition.. i'm f-ing nervous! pls pls pls pls let my essay b in the running for 600 plus of spending money.. arg. even if it gets chosen 4 the competition.. i don think my writing's tt good. bye $600++ of money, n worth of.. *cries*

well.. sku ended early today. much earlier.. 12 noon. woots! (: i planned 2 go orchard with ashley but some ass *ahem ahem* *hint hint* *points* dragged me 2 drama wit her. uhh wait. actually it was more den one person.. k nvm. yeah as usual i had fun. drama rocks! blah bla bla.. edwin REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY looks like someone hinny wenny a.k.a SECRET n i noe.. omg. he looks so so so so so so so so so so much like him!! like brothers.. too bad they ain't related..

after drama ellie n i went 2 mac for lunch. late lunch. half way thru.. cherilyn joined us. den it was mei xu next. we sat at mac for SO LONG. n we didnt eat much.. but we had so much fun just yakking n yakking away.. we walked arnd for quite some time.. wasted like 45 min.. we saw our sku choir perform at j8. there weren't much ppl at all.. went 2 mac again. sat there for quite some time again. then we were so bored we decided 2 go 2 sku. for fun that is. tralalalala. i think we were disturbing eugene frm his studies cuz after a while wen we came, he left. oppsy sorri eugene! we yakked even more... so much tt i was really late for my swimming class. as usual.. thankfully i took a cab.. i wonder how long it would take if i took the bus. hmm lets c.. VERY LONG. *nods*

haiix my swimming is SO tiring. exhausting. its killing me! i shld really return to competitive swimming.. endurance swimming is so..... (like i said) tiring n exhausting. not tt competitive ain't but my stamina SUCKS. big time. we swam 30 laps today.. den had the more advanced lifesaving thingy.. only vignette can take the test. wilson n i haf 2 wait till next year, the others haf 2 wait 1 n a half years.. muahahahs!! omg the 30 laps was already enuf 2 kill. swam it in like (if i'm not wrong..) 31.15 min. which is SO slow.. compared 2 my best competitive swimming timing.. it sucks. a lot.. ashamed!! *sniffs* but the killer was the more advanced lifesaving thingy. i call it the "more advanced thingy" cuz i dont noe wats the grade for it. its higher den lifesaving 1,2 n 3 tho.. so like i was typing.. we had 2 tug our partner too n fro in different methods, there was one tt we had 2 cup our hands over our partner's head n swim laps.. our necks ACHED!!! for me it was my neck n back.. it hurt so much! den even more tugging n swimming. i felt the burn in my legs. it sucked. i feel so dam sore i don wish 2 move for the next century. ok i'm kidding on tt one. i wish i didnt go.. yeh i noe. all i do is complain. sorri! i'll shut up now.

heh.. saturday tmw. my mom's leaving for chicago n philadelphia (i duno how 2 spell..) tmw.. good n bad. good as in she cant check up on wat i'm doing for 8 days. bad as in my grandma will b staying with us. -_-" if she reports wat i've done in the 8 days tt my mom is gone.. i'm f-ing dead. i've got 6 late parties 2 go for!! if i miss it.. bummer. i'll slap my sis! lol wish i could.. if i slap her my mom will chase me.. ): so watever. arg i don wanna go my dad's house tmw, i'd rather stay at home. slack. do watever i want n wen i want.. wat shld i tell him.. i'm sick? he'll ask me go his house 2 rest. -_-" tons of HW? he'll ask me go his house do.. err.. any other suggestions? .. i shld consult shalin abt this.. too bad she's fast asleep at 10.45 on a friday night. TOOT!! so many things to do on a friday night!! HELLO? friday night? go party lah!! sleep at 10?! -_-" 1st time i heard of this.. is it just me or is this abnormal? watev..

weeeeeeeeeeee!! this is a super long post n i'm still aching.. n feeling sore. i've got breakin free by zac efron n vannessa anne hudgens!! ZAC EFRON!!!! i love this obssession of an obssession!! if u dont understand.. bang ur head on the wall 7 times really hard den come n ask me.

7/06/2006

hey ya'll.......................... ok i forgot wat i was gonna blog now. erms.. uhh.. k nvm. i'll start with sku.. wen i got 2 sku it was like frigging dark.. n cold. we didnt haf assembly cuz of duno wat reason.. were told 2 go 2 our homeroom. wow sittin next 2 the window is a blessing!! n a curse too wen the weather is more xtreme den usual. well some of my papers got wet while i was at XY n vic's place.. forgot de window was open.. -_-" k blah bla bla.. lessons.. sleeping even more so.. yak yak yak.

think i failed my maths test paper. n i think i got a negative mark. "huh? u noe the meaning of negative or not?" some of u may ask. yeah i do. its -a number. ya noe y? cos of my math teacher.. he'll minus marks for doin de sum the "primary sku way" i mean hello? who cares as long as the working n answer is ok? hah n teacher said he thinks the highest mark in my class is only 10 over 15... haiix.. confirm fail.. ):

neways music period was really fun! we had 2 do some funny dance. doin it wasn't fun.. but watching others do it is FUNNY!! yup we had 2 do it. if not the sadistic teacher will so........ tortue us, she hates my class but loves torturing us.. sigh... den she graded us for CME n eng thingy. sucked. we sucked. whole class sucked. all the grps sucked. whole sku sucks. hehe ok not really.. nvm

i'm tryna think of something to write about for the reader's digest competition. any idea wat the frigging prize is?!

Lower Secondary
1st Prize: “The Pen Awards” Trophy to winning school. Winner gets S$600 cash, “The Pen Awards” Trophy, a Pilot Capless Rhodium Fountain Pen worth S$450, Popular Book Voucher worth S$200, a Reader’s Digest book worth S$99 and a one year subscription to Reader’s Digest magazine worth S$114.
2nd Prize: “The Pen Awards” Trophy to winning school. Winner gets S$300 cash, “The Pen Awards” Trophy, a Pilot Timeline Pen Set worth S$200, Popular Book Voucher worth S$200, a Reader’s Digest book worth S$99 and a one year subscription to Reader’s Digest magazine worth S$114.
3rd Prize: “The Pen Awards” Trophy to winning school. Winner gets S$100 cash, “The Pen Awards” Trophy, a Pilot Knight Roller Ball Pen worth S$55, Popular Book Voucher worth S$200, a Reader’s Digest book worth S$99 and a one year subscription to Reader’s Digest magazine worth S$114

yeah i don care abt reader's digest mags tho they r quite nice 2 read.. only the prize money. 1st prize $600!!! OMG i can buy like 4 crumpler bags k? wth.. well not like i'm gg 2 anyway but.. $600?! hah impossible for me 2 get ah..whole singapore ya noe? somemore so many ppl wan to win.. how m i supposed to win?????? *cries*

after sku we complained abt everything. as in everything. wont even say anymore abt it. shalin me n xy went 2 j8 for some stuff.. had lunch. bot a book. not me i mean. shalin, for her cousin's b'day.. bla bla bla took the bus home. den these 7 guys boarded the bus. there was de smell of smoke.. den dis guy asked for my number. he's cute but i was like erm no. there was another guy sitting next to me keep pestering me 2 give my number.. walao pai seh eh got 7 guys looking at me n pressuring me 2 give.. lucky he only asked me at the stop before he alighted. walao den de 6 guys keep asking me. omg omg omg. but yeah.. he's cute. watever.

right now i so want to win the readers digest competition.. must brainstorm 10 hrs!!!! omigosh lorrs.. must win!!!!

7/04/2006

...nothing much 2 blog abt today.. but i did something i have not done in A VERY LONG TIME. homework. i did it. in class. hehe since i've been sitting with the so-called guai kia i've become.. well.. a bit more guai. (that's obedient for u.. not strange. in chinese u toot!!) i did GEOGRAPHY ws eh!! i hate geo!! seriously!! omigosh..

mrs loh had 2 go 4 meeting so mrs tay reliefed us. halfway thru the class.. stacia shouted "fu** u la!" cos she was sitting on the other side of class.. next 2 the boys.. the boys tot she meant them. but she meant me. hah. so ragu shouted backsome bad word. cant remember ah.. den she said "also not saying u la." den ragu said "of cos la. everyone in class hates u." she shut up. omg i felt so fucking good!! yeah i did. i'm bad.. evil.. i noe. i'm tryna be a better person. like benjamin who says stuff like "keep ur anger to urself. if possible.. disguise it. its wat i do. but wen u c a chance 2 strike.. take her down." dammit i love tt line!! way 2 go bEn!! woots!! profound advice! really. i was like.. ok cheem much? but can u believe ragu said tt 2 stacia? n most ppl agreed with him? WOW. tt feeling is so....... ooh!! if i could get the feeling all day.. i'd be a VERY happi person no matter wat. sure i may not feel so happy after a while cuz i get tired of stuff easily.. but hello? do u noe wat i'm talking abt here?????????

fine i'll shut up. hah. GO RAGU N BENJAMIN!! woots!! btw.. did ya'll noe i absolutely ADORE drama? did ya? fine. i'll shut up again. lolzx.

7/01/2006

morning tea crap. haiix. my grp came so dam EARLY like we met at 7.30am for drama practises!! i woke up 6plus on a sat!! first time! n i slept at 4plus doin nonsense. pro,huh? of cos we were tired n everything.. i got mitchell 2 get me hashbrowns while the gals all salivated as i ate cos they didnt think of asking him. well.. except victoria. i bot for her cuz i walked 2 j8 3 times cos i was a bit early. n knowing them.. they're normally late. infact..ALWAYs late. we only met up at 7.50. i woke so dam early for nothing.. -__-" the 'practises' weren't benificial at all. as usual. so crappy.. waste time only... next year.. we're getting benjamin..mitchell..gilvey n ragu!! al least they're more enthu n willing 2 do stuff lors. 1000000000000 TIMES better den nat chua n frigging yong en!!!! RARRRRRRRRRRRR

my grp's drama performance was so embarassing. my grp n ragu's had 2 perform 4 the parents n classmates yst. OMG we sucked!!! wtf lorrs. as in CHAO sucked!! lol our grp's acting was so.. ughy. neways.. nicole(mitch's sis) was there. i freaked. hah. my mom was like.. "wat r u doin?" cos she was chasing me n i ran away. obviously. ran arnd the 4th floor dono how many times! (: wen i told eugene y i was running away, he ran with me!! ^_^ hah c? normal reaction!! n i think shi jie ALMOST ranaway if not for the fact tt her dad pulled her awae. lol!! later my mom went 2 talk 2 mrs low. here's the conversation..

my mom" hi mrs loh. how is kimberly performing in class?"

mrs loh "o she's really intelligent but rather playful.(playful? how old do u think i m? i'm just more outspoken u ass!!) the sci teacher has complained about her being rude.

me "the stupid i mean.. cancel tt. the sci teacher has like never soled scolded me!!! its the whole class!! *looking awae*

*my mom looks at mrs loh*

*mrs loh looks at me*

*i look at my mom*

me "....uhh.. wat?"

mrs loh "she's in the top 15 of the class if i'm not wrong. in the last exam.. her written work was excellent! she was actually 1st in class. n she writes really well! (how many times haf i heard tt?)

my mom " i noe. all her past eng teachers haf told me tt abt her writing ability. but i'm sure she can do better?"

mrs loh " o tt's ok. let her do her own thing. mustn't push em too hard u noe?"

me" yea yeah!! lemme do my own thang!!" *smiles n pats self!!*

*my mom gives a strange look* "well has any other teacher complained abt her?"

mrs loh "no. i think she's more bold n outspoken *interupts her in my mind* :finally!!" then other pupils n she's more talkative.

*my mom looks at me n casts me a u're in trouble stare.* "here's my email address. pls let me noe if she's done anything and how she's doing in sku"

mrs loh smiles n says "no problem. haf a gd day. listen 2 her ok kimberly?"

me "uhh.. yeh. bye mrs loh."

blah blah blah. my mom wanted 2 c sci, maths n geo teacher. but thankfully they weren't in their class.
went home.. my mom talked 2 me. blah blah blah blah blah. dad called. couldn't c him cuz my mom was still talkin 2 me.

somethin happened wen i talked 2 my dad later yesterday night. i'm dam pissed with him!!! i'm not gg 2 talk 2 him or c him for the next 21943806405 years!! i'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FREAKING PISSED WITH HIM!! can't he respect my choices n trust me? can't he give me more freedom? let me haf my space? doesn't he noe the meanin of NO? i hate him!!!

..................................................................................................................... haiix. ok now the hating stacia skin ain't accessable. still dont noe wats wrong with it. i NEED 2 put a PW thing on my blog so he can't c it...

heh.. ok watev ppl. yay tmw's youth day!! no sku... can sleep in. wonder wat 2 do.. any activites ya'll gg for? wan invite me? lol hehe